Documentary broadcast by the VPRO about a powerful woman confronted with a harsh fate when she suddenly gets HIV at the age of 32. Her world collapses and the disease is the trigger for a critical self-examination. What does her future hold for her and can she ever become the Pauline the once was before being infected with HIV? Her quest brings her to Thailand, Ibiza and Italy, among others. Her wish is to become a mother. That is easier said than done.